A cheater feels more clever than rest of players. You must think you controlled a hack, but the truth is hack has controlled you. There's no way to hack without be noticed, no matter how subtle you try. So, why you didn't apologize at the time you were hacking? Why was a BAN needed to make you apologize/ponder?
Anyway, we just want a clean game. I don't know if admins will give you a chance, but if they do, remember that we know how differentiate a legit pro player from a cheater cunt. No matter you play bad using cheats, no matter how good you play as pro player. We don't target you as a cheater for wining a game or killing a lot.